d' pR!cE oF deE KiSS3s iN D dAnc3fLoOr

This year is another year to celebrate because of the blessings that we had from the previous years and of course to the continuous blessings of the Lord this coming year... Anyway, here I am once again to tell you another story that makes you think and realize things that will help you to understand our own world...Last night, I went to another interesting place which consider as the tourist spot of gay guys... It is totally awesome because the place had the best guys in town and considered as the heaven of seductive men, the fever and hotness of the dance floor....I was fascinated with the guys and also with the people because aside from the friendly ambiance, it has the variety of flavors.... from black to white, from jocks to twinks, from buff to lean, GLBT... etc.

To tell you the truth I've been to that place for 5 times ... 3 times when I was with my ex-bf and 2 times when I’m alone trying to see my ex... hehehehe... corny huh!? but true...Anyway, my ex-boyfriend planned to celebrate the pre-new year party with his friends and I was not invited thou…huhuhuuhh…

Well, that night, I tried to contact him and asked him if he’s planning to go out and he replied that he will go out together with his friends and when I asked him if I can go out with them he answered me positively.......When I met them at the gate of the bar, the stay there for about 5 mins and we came inside the bar and meet other friends.... we choose a better place for us to hang out (and witness different cocks and jocks... hahahahah) and ordered 6 bottles of beers, and guess what ?!?!?!? I never touch those first 6 bottles of beers because I truly don’t want to drink beer at all and all I did was to stand at the corner...ALONE... !!! After few minutes I decided to ordern an iced tea and dance again every now and then...

While we’re dancing, drinking, flirting and chatting at the same time, a guy who sits next to our table looked at me with a big smile on his face. Well, I think that I have the reason to look at him, you know why ? Because he is totally hot!!! Cute!!!! And oh my god, he’s such a gorgeous-looking guy. He was introduced to me by my Ex bf and without knowing he's a bottom guy!

So, this guy danced with me together with her shemale friend. After that, he asked my name and asked me to take off my clothes... That evening, I’m just wearing my Tank top and my jogging pants and as u can imagine I am so sporty! Imagine a guy who went to the gym with a small make-up kit… Funny isn’t it … hehehe… Kidding aside, it is not a make-up kit… hahhahaah .. but a small pouch contains of my perfume, wallet and cell phone…

Anyway, I saw the face of my ex-bf and it seems that he’s no longer concern about me. So, this guy removed my tank top and start dancing in front of me...As in… He’s flirting with me that evening… and god!!!! I had a total hard-on (i wish he's not able to read this) hehehehe ...

While dancing, I saw the transformation of the disco pub into a jungle and how I saw the guys transforming into beasts, wild-animals, and hot bulls.... thou its not a total bullshit but as you can see, it is a total image of the wild life in Africa. Anyway, as the night getting late… oopppss I forgot that we went there late... again... As the night turn into morning... I saw different guys kissing and touching each others likes strangers in the dark.... What are they doing there? Do they know who are they kissing??? And It reminds me on how am I gonna value the KISSING...????

I’m sure that all of you will agree to me that one of the most special part in a pornshow, romantic films, plays and TV series are the kissing scenes because it is a symbol of getting into another level... another level of maturity or another level of being attached to each other, right?! Specifically to the person you like the most.... or should I say... love the most ?? which do one do you think is appropriate??? Anyway, I saw these two strange guys (also they are strange to each other.. hehehe ) .... and as I observed them, at first, they just dance and smile to each other and after that they introduce themselves to each other and taking-off their clothes after the heavy moments of dancing.... funny isn’t it ? But that’s how it really goes.... Unless you don’t want it...

Anyway...

It is really good to know that they enjoy the night and never spoiled it. Another thing that captured my attention was the way they kissed and why they are kissing?! It comes to the point, that I asked myself why do they need to do that ?~!?!?! hmmm....I’m sure that all of us are eager to have that kiss and since that kissing is also known as form of art because it is an expression of emotion using the sense as your medium towards your subject/s. It is also one way of showing your affection and compassion to another person “you love” right?! This should be another thing to talk about…. Another good thing to clarify and another good thing to clear…But do we really need to do that in front of the gay club?! Inside the gay club??? In the middle of the dance floor??? Is that one way of showing and telling to the world that "someone like me because he kissed me..." or "... I’m hot and I have a very hot body then get and kiss me..."

Well...aside from just a kiss… there's another that bothers me…The French kissing... OMG!!!! Well guys, if we will going to a gay club, please!... lets not try this because it is not recommendable especially for the youth like us …I know that it is not my concern but let me tell u something, I've been in that situation and kissed different hot guys and gay guys, but then... what I’m looking for is not with them... There’s no spark at all and it’s just like, wasting my time of doing such thing without any satisfaction....

I am not trying to encourage you to stop it but then, you may avoid it... Try to meet and know the person first before you kiss or have sex with him and then if you both deserve each others, why not try to get his number and invite him to another comfortable place that will suits for both of you.... Because I believe that the power of love and the foundation of relationship SHOULD undergo process...

Always remember that we should take kissing as another sacred thing, because it is good when u kiss the person you really love with deeper feelings and a deeper emotions, compassion and true feeling of love… and not just a cheap kissing from a strange guy... Try to imagine how expensive your kiss worth and then make a deal to a person you starting to like and to love, then you will realize the amount of it when you both kiss passionately with love and compassion and that’s it... that the value of it... that’s the great thing about knowing how valuable your kisses are...

Kissing will become unforgettable kisses when you give it with love and share it with feelings... It will be amazing if you will do it with enjoyment and romance and lastly, it will be great if you just dance and start an amazing courting that will lead you to a better understanding of a true gay guy relationship...

Happy New Year~~~

tH3 R3lAt!0nShip Of A TrAñsG3nDeR-GEi - The observation

Gay-relationship is very interesting and colorful relationship in this world. It has different genre like what we see in the movies and like we read at the pocketbooks.... It is really great because it has drama and comedy, the villain and the antagonist, the side-kick and the protagonist... The theme, the plot, the climax but not concluded ending... and these things help to make such relationship a world-class masterpiece.

Sometimes, relationship is full of happiness and most often full of mystery. Because you dont know what is the key to solve the mystery and how it is happening... It is quite amazing if such relationship survive because you know that both of them are working out to survive. Its nice, right?! .. It is right when you work and you see the product of ur hardship... its quite fulfilling!!!

Last night, when i visit my Transgender friend in her performance at the bay, I never realized that his boyfriend was there to once again support him and its really cool to remember how they met... well of course i will not going to mention how they met... its a complicated thing hehehe ... Anyway, I miss this friend of mine and i consider her as my bestfriend... She's so nice and she's so fantastic... I went there late in the evening and because of that, i missed most of the performance and laughthers... She's a stand-up comedianne, you know... Anyway, this is not her story but a story of her co-performer... hehehe

While sitting on the table with Nanay Chuchai (Code) and my bestfriend's boyfriend, we talk different things and one of those is the Pinoy Dream Academy which is very interesting to discuss. Of course, I need to avoid the entire topic of my bestfriend & boyfriend because for sure they will not gonna spit it out... hehehe... Anyway, I enjoy laughing with Nanay Chuchai and its really good to remember the past when i saw her drunk...

well.... let me begin...

In the middle of our conversation a guy interrupt us because Nanay Chuchai made a homily to this guy and after that short homily, Nanay Chuchai introduce him to me but as you expected, I forgot his name... Anyway, here where the story goes, This guy has a normal relationship--relationship with straight female, and if im not mistaken He is also committed to this normal relationship. Without knowing he is also attached with Shine (code) who is also a transgender...

Well as i heard the homily and the story of this guy even in a short period of time... I realize that eventhough it is painful for them(trans) to be hurt by someone straight, still they are there to be part of that growing relationship... or false relationship?! Who knows, only the people involved in that relationship can answer and solve it.

Why did i say that?! Well, This guy wait for how many hours to Shine because he did something to her that makes her sad and hurt...This guy told to Nanay Chuchai that he loves Shine but as the homily is concern, he knows that he did something that make Shine cry and anger... Thou the guy statement sounds genuine because he even told nanay chuchai that he dont love his present wife and thats one reason why he's trying to make-up with her. Because of this, he waited for long time and stay there and go home together... Of course, it sounds very sweet but then, try to realize it, a man will never stay and wait if he dont have some problem with Shine, right?!

Of course, it is hard to be a gay querida and its funny when u say that word, but sometimes it is a fact and it is real that these people are looking for someone to love without knowing that the person they choose to love have another commitment... Thou i dont want to hurt this people but the reality is that, it is very minimal to a transgender-relationship to find the real relationship, the real happiness... of course being gay is another thing... it is another thing because it cost effort, trials and experiences to find the best relationship.

Im very much happy for them because they enjoy even it is complicated but it is really hurtful when u see them crying and you have nothing to advice becoz its not your thing.. you know!?. That is their way to define love and from that love, they know that they are satisfied and well. They know that even the whole world is against them, still they found the best in it...Another thing, I find it very amazing because I saw the happiness to that guy when he call Shine "bhe" and it means that they are really into each other... sweet huh?! Even me, I would like someone to call me hunny or Baby and its really sweet to hear... heheheh>>>

anyway...

While both performers are doing their job to make money and make the crowd laughs.. Still there are two guys waiting for them... Two guys that accepted that they are in the world of true love, true acceptance and real transgender relationship... is it? who knows?!

Im very much happy with these people because one thing for sure, They are happy, well-accepted and inloved and from that, i know that no matter what happen, still it is the best for them to continue it and be part of that relationship... Of course there's no such perfect relationship, because it needs effort, time and commitment to build and develop it. No one in this world can answer your own problem if you dont seek on it, and if u dont find the solution of it...

conti....

A 15-minutes blog of a gayguy date...

Date is a very interesting hobby of a lonely person ... It is the answer of the of the question, Am i being alone forever?! Is he my mr. right?! or Is this the way to my long-time commitment?! What if this date is such a failure and not even gonna pass to your standard?! What will gonna happen?! What if your date rejected you instead you rejected him?! Hmmmm... Very realistic questions, right?!

Well it is really good to meet stranger that you will meet for the 1st time and after that it will bring you both to a very good friendshipr or much deeper--gayguy relationship.That is a very interesting conclusion of a great and soulmate-date, right?! Because you know that you both understand what everything is all about. It is also good to spend time with him and think that u're both child who enjoy the company of no-doubt, enjoyment and continous happiness because this is makes u both feel great!!!!

All i can say is that... when u meet someone stranger and this is a good example of EB or SEB it should be better if you meet and talk and get to know more because thats the best start of a very healthy relationship... Reality bites! it is great that you never say you like him on the first date or even on the first time you will meet or have sex with, because thats not real.. its just like you are in the middle of fantasy... it is not real... HEllo!!!! You both should enjoy the moment of talking and maybe you can do that both on the 2nd meeting, on the 2nd time when both of you are comfortable to each other...

It is also safe for both of you that way because I'm sure u r both innocent to each other's background... What im trying to say is that ... At least you dont know his background and vise versa and as the time goes by... It will develop and will form a best ever relaitonship... Many people said that friendship is the gateway of a true relationship but then it is up to you how u will go to the next level... it is ur way how it will evolve and develop and it is your way if both of you will be happy not for shorter but a longer relationship. Times up!

ONE THING I HATE ABOUT CHRISTMAS!!!...

Christmas is a very wonderful season to celebrate and this is the best time for us to celebrate the birth of our savior. This is the beginning of hope to everyone and a great start for everyone to feel better....! But then sometimes we forgot to celebrate it in a very right way and this makes me feel irritated... I would like to put emphasis on being a Godfather of my godchildren in my old place... because this is totally bullshit!!!!

Well, I back to my old place to spend christmas with my family and relatives and this time i saw some of my old friends and some people who are the parents of my Godchildren... One thing i hate is that when they see me and talk to me... it makes me feel that its just like a talk for the first time, because they never do that before and if so, well its a total drama... something like reminding you that " Hello, Its Christmas time... dont forget your Godchild on the 25th of december".. Thou its just an interpretation but then thats how i feel when i talk and meet them... it makes me irritated and it makes me feel how sad that they just talking to you because of the purpose of reminding u not to forgot their children...

Well, I dont know, maybe am a bad person regarding that matter but who cares, its just being real to the real world... IF they dont need anything to you of course they will not going to talk to you and if they talk or meet u, for sure its another issue....

Im not against Christmas, but sometimes this season help me to realize how to be real in myself and how this affect the people's understanding and celebrating occasion... Christmas should enjoy whether there's no gift or whether no other friends besides you... As long as you celebrate it with Him and knowing how God is powerful and help us... i think thats the best thing to do and we should be thankful for that......

happy holidays!!!

The Journey Continous...

2006 is another year for me to celebrate... it was a very great year because it gives me a chance to develop my skills and to enjoy life to the fullest... there's a huge trials, experiences, changes and innovations to my life and i accepted it with no regrets... I enjoy everything of it and no questions asked... It so happen that sometimes u feel sad and most often trying to hide that sadness for them not to see or even feel it, but of course there are some people who knows you entirely even when you are happy or sad and that makes me feel im important... It is great for me to celebrate 2006 with my friends and loveones because this thing makes me feel that life is beautiful and meaningful as well... it is great for me to enjoy what God gave to mankind to be happy and to be aware that everything in this world is continous... that everything in this world is meaning and God's gift and of course God's gift includes sacrifice, problems, struggles and diificulties because if you knows how to solve or to answer the following problems and obstacles... it means that God loves you and give you the opportunity to get in touch with him and He's just reminding you that you're being weak and you need someoen to be with in order to be good or better and well to the struggle of life...

I pray that when I die in the future and have the priviledge to talk with God, I will resquest for him to send me back to earth and enjoy it once again to the people i love and for them to appreciate me and for me to make them happy... That life, right?! happiness, forgiveness and sharing, problems, hatred and pain....... it is good because thats how God love us... thats how God make us a better person... a better individual and a better part of the society... thats how a person should handle life... a tough person with a very tough personality... it is important...

IT is important... especially when you're with Him...

The Journey of a 25 years old gayguy...

Life is the best gift of God to mankind because having life is truly the best thing for everyone.. It is an opportunity for us to go and move towards our dreams in life and achieve it with dignity and pride...

I will start this story by knowing how life is very great for me... God gave me the opportunity to experience everything... to have everything and to enjoying everything!!! There's a time that we feel bad and sad because we thought that we are not lucky to have everything in this life and sometimes we fail on our stuff, on our things that we want to achieve. But then, it made me realize that it is a beginning of a new challenge of life... A new start of everything and a thing to look forward too...

I consider myself as a simple person... A simple human being with big dreams and ambition for a better life... a person who is also hungry for success! because sometimes i feel insecured and that made me weak and lazy in doing the right thing and move for best life that i want... sometimes i dont have the patience and just want to rush everything for knowing that time is very important... but once again i realize that we should wait.. we should wait for the right time for us to have what we want... and work on the things that makes us strong and equipped in a world where competition is always everywhere...

People in this world is always looking for something, always looking for a better thing, a better partner, a better job, a better lifestyle, a better enjoyment and a better relationship but who knows what better for us... I beleive that the only constant in this world is Change and this is the best answer for everything... I know that it is really hard for us to stay in one place or to accept the reality and knowing the contentment of life but here we are trying to go more and look for more and want more... Why dont we just stay??!?! why we dont keep our present life and improve it better by doing simple things?!?!?! why we dont keep knowing life as a real thing?! why we dont keep life as a practical thing as well?!

Only us can answer....

cont....