THE PHOTOS OF ME AND MY COLLEGUES HERE IN SHARJAH, UAE

Well.. becoz of the connection... im not able to show u all the pix here in sharjah, UAE but then... i will let u see my friendster in the future... just ask and i will give... but this time... its just a pix of me in Ajman... an open beach!

Another pix of me is when we arrived at Dubai's Airport... UAE is the 2nd country that i visited and this time... its all about work!!! well... The pix shows my first time... hehehehe ....

The next picture of me and my collegues... We enjoy the night swimming after our work last thursday... it was really great to stay there, thou of course, we need to go early becoz friday is rest day and we need to do many stuff every friday... from washing our clothes, to shop and rest of course....

Well... its really hard to live here becoz of less leisure but more working days but eventhough I have that lifestyle that i will enjoy for two years.. I know that God is always there to keep me doing these....

I miss but i missed!

i just dont know... i dont know what to write!!! i think im paranoid!! help me! Give me more power to understand everything!!! i just feel sad deep inside!

The Hardship of Life!

When I decided to travel and work here in Sharjah UAE... I know that it will be a huge adjustment, heavy jobs and hard time.... All of those things are already in my mind.. But then I promise to myself that I will set a plan for myself and for my future...

Well... Im sorry if im not able to put some blogs this past few weeks... well one reason is that, It turns arabic everytime i type my blogs at thats extra adjustment for me.. So it takes time for me to formulate english words...

Anyway... I like it here... It gives me great opportunities.. a great life... a wonderful future!!! but then I know the fact that its not all about money... Its about happiness, sometimes! right?! But then... Its already program in my mind.. How are u able to give happiness to the person you love (family, friends, special someone) if u dont have anything to make them happy... ???

I know that many is not the basis of everything... But it gives color.. it gives ambition.. it gives life... These are the things that makes me work hard for me .... and for my future!!!

Well.. I had a very busy week... After I met my General manager, meet new friends and collegues it makes me realize that "Im really here in middle east... working hard and claiming as a CERTIFIED OFW..." its kinda odd you know.. its kinda low class stuff but then i learn to love it... I know that there's no problem being OFWs... the next line will be as "HEROES OF OUR NATION"... but those are true... When u get here.. when u travel and work here.. U know that its not enjoyment... its not pleasure but pure hardwork...

But when I realize everything that im already here... and i already adjusted... It doesnt matter if u are bachelor's degree or a university graduate... its all about hardwork, dedication, movation, focus and what do u want to achieve after few years time... That matters!!!! It is!!! beleive me.. it works...

But then... If you just think and miss philippines.. it makes u weak, depress and makes u want to come back home... but when u realize that there's no life in the philippines, that there's no money there... Well.. thats anotehr thing for u to work hard...

I know that when I left Philippines.. I left my heart there... with my family, with my friends and also with you... (you know who u r) your words makes me feel im just next door or just next city woroking hard... well-motivated for me to finished this contract and be home with u... thats the fact!!! thats why i keep thinking of you... I keep saving all of your messages so that I have this vitamins to stand erect, work my feet and smile everytime i feel tired...

Its funny you know!!! Its funny when u leave someone u love in the philippines and the following day u both miss each other... its really funny when you think your future together and how it will goes in the future...

Its really hard in here... its really hard when I think life here.. but everytime i think of you... Everytime u send me messages... everytime u say the words... Those are the things makes my day lighter... I know.... Yes!! I know im deeply in love with you... and I hope we can wait for the right thing... until the time we meet again... I totally miss you! I totally think that one day... I'll be home... with u... I'll be home with someoen i can call my HUN.... my love...my sweetheart...

This experience is one of the most memorable experience that I ever have... Its about life, dream, ambition, motivation and experience.... Its about building ur ownself... building your life and making ur dream come true!!!

sometimes, its now about luck.. its about hardwork! its about performance! its about you! and its about your future will be!!!

keep it up and u will see the light!!!

Is this the moment that I am waiting for???

Is this the moment that I am waiting for?!?!?! or just a dream???!!!!

When my sister asked me if I want to work abroad, i told her that I am interested but make sure that my job is not as a call center agent.... I am not against about that job but I just dont like it... Anyway, after the pageant (mr gay philippines), I realize that it is really time for me to settle down when I know to myself that I found the guy that im also waiting for...

This time I asked myself... Is this just a trial or a joke?!?!? Is this really what God want for me??!!Why does he needs to do that, now that He knows that I love this guy...What I am talking about is when I finally met the guy and at the same time career abroad knocks to my door and asked me if I want to travel and work as a Visual Merchandiser.

When I finally received the news that I am FIT TO WORK... I cried and think of the things that I will gonna miss when I leave the country... Although its really hard for me to decide, but then I chose to work my papers and process it and leave the country as soon as I can.... So that no more heartache, no more homesick and no more relationship that will grow and develop... but then ... its not really easy... It is not really easy when you know that you are already attached to a person that changed your life, your style, your future and your beliefs...It is wonderful to think that I feel this feeling again...It is a great feeling when you know that someone love you and vise versa....

According to my sister, I might leave the country on or before 12th of May and now, I only have few more days to spend it to my family, friends and to him... Because I really want some quality time with him and I want to enjoy the moment of us being together ...

We plan,
We talk
We think
and
We will Sacrifice...

These are the things that we do... Thou soon we will sacrfice being together but we hope it will be for our future life being together... I also asked my sister if it is ok if she work out on my loveone's papers, so that we can both go there and work and save some $$ so that after 2 years or so..we can return and start a good business of our own, built a good family and have a great home....

Isnt it wonderful that this time you are not thinking of urself anymore but instead you are dreaming and wishing to have a best life with someone you love in the near future... I must admit im madly inlove and i think loving someone is also consider as a BALANCE of everything...There is one time when my conscience told me... "having a relationship is not just giving your heart, your time and your effort.... also you need to live! you need to work and you need to earn and live for your future..." which is totally true... I want to live life with enjoyment... not just sorrow but of course we need to work for us to live...

BUt there is sometime when It think..."Is he my boyfriend now??" "When is that?!?!" I hope that its real.... I know he loves me...and he knows I love him but I just dont know and feel when he will be mine... I just dont know when will I able to call him MY boyfriend... MY partner...???I dont know...Cause this time i dont want to initiate... I just want to hear him telling that I am his boyfriend....

Its just like... I dont want other people thinking that Im just claiming if I introduce him to our common friends as my boyfriend... I just dont like the idea of " I KNOW HE IS MY BOYFRIEND.." but what if other people asked him...and answered..."we're just friends..." It is hard to accept?!?!? right?! I know I am not that good in terms of relationship coz I know to myself that most of my relationships are totally failed and not a good thing to remember....

I know that life is cruel...
I know that life is a struggle
I know that life is full of sacrifice
I know that life is painful...

But when you face these and when you feel these... You know that you love... because when you overcome those trials by improving how much u love the person... It means that you know u've been into a very hard time.. but then... no regrets because you know u gain something and you learn something from it...

I LOVE YOU.. u know that... i just dont want it that way... I also want u to feel that...
I might not be perfect but willing to learn
I might look not serious but i also want to talk more stuff
I always listen and im happy you talk
I also want to talk and share... but i hope you are listening and understanding...

Dubai, UAE is kinda far from the Philippines and it will take 2 years after I come back... I told him that he has the time... he has everything and I will make sure that when I return... I still going to love him and I will prepare for our futre together ... I hope he will feel the same thing...

All I Ask is to ...

LOVE ME...

BAKIT???

Hindi ako makapagsulat!!!!

Nakakainis..

Ang hirap ng ganitong Feeling!!!

Nakakainis..

Nakakaiyak....

Wala akong magawa...

Pero whatever happen Lord... kung ito ang kagustuhan mo... I'll follow...

Pero Lord... please dont let him go away...

MR GAY Philippines top 10

U....

"You become my inspiration... You give me reason to live life.... You give me chance to see my life in a brighter side... Help me to forget you!!!!"

--- jhayvee

WHY????

Last night I sleep around 8pm and woke up around 10pm because my mom texted me... And after that text, im trying to sleep again but its really hard for me to sleep because Im thinking for many things... I dont know where to start but it really makes me feel so lonely and my life is like a roller coaster because of the problems and the thoughts im thinking this past few days....

I dont know... everything is like a problem with me at the moment... its really hard for me to establish myself because of many circumstances... I wish I can solve this... i just wish!!!

WHY????

Last night I sleep around 8pm and woke up around 10pm because my mom texted me... And after that text, im trying to sleep again but its really hard for me to sleep because Im thinking for many things... I dont know where to start but it really makes me feel so lonely and my life is like a roller coaster because of the problems and the thoughts im thinking this past few days....

I dont know... everything is like a problem with me at the moment... its really hard for me to establish myself because of many circumstances... I wish I can solve this... i just wish!!!

FACES.... & CHARACTER.....

AM I done?!

Am I done?!!?!? Am i done with my life of being single?! Am i ready to enter to a new relationship?! How am I able to work it out?! Is he the one im waiting for?! How sure i am? How sure he is?!

Too many questions bothers on my mind this past few days ... It made me realize how lucky I am to experience this problems, struggles and enjoyment...It means that Im a certified HUMAN BEING...

I know that life is very hard and very unpredictable... U dont know who will come your way.. or who will u gonna meet at the end of the line... Sometimes, it is better to dream than to see the reality of life... Sometimes it is better to keep your eyes close than to see what will going to happen next... But no doubt... that is the beauty of life and I thank God for that!!!

We are all lucky to have this life and I know God has his own way on how to please us... how to give what we need in life... what type of problem that He's going to give... We are lucky becoz we are alive... we live... we enjoy... we struggle... we cry...and we are here to share the bounty of God.. The blessings and the life that we have...

But how about my life that Im longing for?! how about the heart that im looking for? how about the nights that i'm there alone looking for someone to cuddle, someone to touch?! It made me feel so sad?! It made me feel thats my life yesterday, today and tomorrow... Am i just lonely?! How about my happinesss???

Am I Happy?!

For me.. Happiness is having someone next you.. someone that u will have for the rest of your life... someone that will give u heartache, headache and stomachache but still he's there living with you...loving you... making u sad, making u smile and making u proud... Happiness is how you will epxerience the sadness with the person u love the most... Happiness is how you will cherish the moment u r in the middle of magic... Happiness is the moment you both enjoy what u both looking for...

Happiness is YOU...

My happiness is always be you...

I dont know when you will come to me and love me... I dont know when u will approach me... I dont know... but then... I welcome you... If you found me as your happiness... I hope i make u happy... I wish i can make u happy... and i hope it will be forever...

MY LIFE AFTER THE PAGEANT...

Joining Mr. Gay Philippines taught us how to become a better person... This competition is about winning the title but winning friends and family... It is wonderful to know that after 1 month of preparations and a month of hectic schedule still we are fighting for our life and our right be accepted in this society...

I'm so lucky to gain 1 love and many friends.. I hope that love will be for long time ot should i say forever...

After the pageant... All of us back to normal... All of us back to our own world... and all of the sudden we miss each other... we miss the hectic schedule, we miss the rehearsals and we miss the time we are together... Joining to this kind of competition is very fantastic... Im so happy that i join to this competition... Everyone knows thats it is really hard to OUT... but then.. we proud gaymen are very much thankful to the organizer, producer and robbie...

With him alone...

When you will know if you are happy?! When you will know if the person besides you makes u feel Happy?! When you will know if you both enjoy being together?! Is it just a dream?! or it is just a fantasy?! Life sometimes help us to understand that even we are rushing things, still there are times that God makes everything into slow motion. I know you will ask me, what is the connection of Hapiness with slow motion?! To tell you honestly, I dont know... I just feel it... and for me i define it very f antastic.... but somehow drastic.... Hay!!!

March17 is a much awaited day of my life because on this day, there are 21 candidates that will buy for the title as Mr. Gay Philippines '07... Right now, i must tell you that i'm doing my best to compete and im doing my best to be the best on that night but then, it makes me feel that everything running fast.... few weeks ago, Im just preparing my stuff for that competition and today, i need to count days just to present myself into large public and tell the world how gay i am... Yeah! it is a form of preparations and motivations to move forward and think of the possible result of that competition... BUt then on... i met this guy.. He is gentle lovely man... at first He dont even recognize me or even dont like to look at me.. but then after giving up someone f rom the past it makes me beleive to the statement that " If someone close his door, Someone will open their window" and i think that it is 1000% true...

He started to talk to me and he started to know me and vise versa.... I dont know his feelings towards me but i guarantee you that i like him the first time i saw him because of his e yes, i think. another factor is that he's being so nice and gentle person... thou i know that he is kinda bitter but i know that it will heals the wound as the time goes by... He might not be the perfect guy but i believe that he is a guy that i can love and enjoy to have with....

Speaking of Slow motion... I feel that when we r together, everything is fantastic and i just feel it that everything is slow motion... but when i see the clock hanging on the wall.. or even the clock on my mobile phone... it made me realize that the time is going faster... I just dont really know how am i able to stop it and make it slow motion but i think thats how we appreciate the moment that u spent time together ... Not that precious or even perfect 1 but a very interesting time that u feel the happiness being with him...

I know that you will think that I'm very much into fantasy, lovestory, & romance and you will tell me that I should wake up and open my eyes to reality... Well... im real... im just inlove, i think. But, i know it is not the basis of love and i dont want to rush things just to get his attention or later to love and live with him... but to the fact that i like him... i can live with it... i can wait as long as i know that he will allow me to wait him... I can be his love if he likes to love me... I can be his friend or even a worst enemy... but then... All i want is him next to me...

For now, I know that we are in a "Getting to know each other" position and i know how hard to adjust and to love ... but then.. that is love, right?! sacrificing urself and asking yourself what love is all about... giving urself to him, giving ur time and effort if it is really necessary...

I'm not younger anymore and i know that... I know it is delicate to appreciate someone because u dont know what is on back of his mind.. But now i learn how to wait.. and like what i always said... im willing to wait... just let me know until when...

I dont know what will gonna happen after the competition.. I just wish he seriously like me... or he make some way for me to stay.. because i will... I know everything will be unpredictable that night and i must prepare myself into that result...

But if u want to ask me... I'm just here... will try to wait you...

I like him.... but... I'm scared!

Many people have their own way in finding special guy or special someone! sometimes it is better if you just wait him and pop up in front of you!!!

There are times that you like to stop and ignore the feelings becoz u know that it is not good for both of you... But, what if he is the right one... but what if he is the person that you are waiting for so long?! How will u know that?!

I still beleive that love is not a quickie thing... I also know that love is not 1hr developing... i know that love is not just a snap but a good start and for something new... a good start to know that it is not just about you but BOTH of you... It is not just about 1 person but to both of you who feel the same thing... knowing the same love and thinking the best for both of you in the future... It is really hard to find that guy and whoever is he, we should prepare ourselves and reserve it just for him... I know how hard it is.... Every failure is a good lesson, each lesson is a good learning, each learning touch our lives and everytime we experience this... we know that we become a better person and from this, we know that we are human... Human that is very fragile and very sensitive...

i'm just an ordinary gayguy.... A person who wants to find his partner, a person who like to experience the world and a person who wants to conquer the world... Not just being along... but... achieving it with special guy beside me...

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I remember the boy.... but he dont remember the feelings!!!

this past few days i feel so sad, and i dont know the reason why... but then it made me realize that im alone and wondering who will be the guy that will love me for real??? We feel so sad especially when we realize that someone from the past reminds your present... right?!

LAst year, i saw and meet my ex boyfriend and i feel so sad because i thought he's trying to figure out our relationship... i also thought that he's working out our relationship and his feelings towards me... because he keeps blaming me of what happen during that time....I never thought that that will be the last moment we remembered that we LOVED each other..

Well then, i cant blame him because of what happen from the past. But that day in the middle of the dancefloor, i saw him happy and thats one good thing for me to move on... but why the ghost of my past keeps telling me to remember those relationship... I just feel so sad... i dont know why I experience this feeling once again... I know that i dont have any reason to get jelous with him because we're no longer lovers but then... i feel so sad... is it me ...??? or him?? i just dont know...

i just want to write this story in order for me to file and document and then im sure that later on, i will forgot that i met him... i really feel so sad...


.... A few minutes ago, i typed and visited my another ex-boyfriend's friendster and saw that he improve more and much goodlooking than before and it made me realize that maybe i miss going out and miss working out... Well i think that this is the best time for me to move and to go on and start a new lifestyle...

I think that this is one good motivation for me to go to gym and balance my time, my diet and my savings in order for me to be well and able to cope up with different stress stuff that comes to my life...

but if that what im really looking for ??? Hmmm...

No matter happen, i feel so lonely and thats what bothers me... Sometimes, i really like to have someone next to me... to cuddle, to love and to be love by me... but then... When he will come and stay? when he will come and say he love me? when he will come and say "i will be ur forever", when he will come and say " even we're not that good partners, im sure everything will be ok"

I wish he come and tell me those things because, im sure that when i hear that, i will feel fine and brave enough to face my life...

d' pR!cE oF deE KiSS3s iN D dAnc3fLoOr

This year is another year to celebrate because of the blessings that we had from the previous years and of course to the continuous blessings of the Lord this coming year... Anyway, here I am once again to tell you another story that makes you think and realize things that will help you to understand our own world...Last night, I went to another interesting place which consider as the tourist spot of gay guys... It is totally awesome because the place had the best guys in town and considered as the heaven of seductive men, the fever and hotness of the dance floor....I was fascinated with the guys and also with the people because aside from the friendly ambiance, it has the variety of flavors.... from black to white, from jocks to twinks, from buff to lean, GLBT... etc.

To tell you the truth I've been to that place for 5 times ... 3 times when I was with my ex-bf and 2 times when I’m alone trying to see my ex... hehehehe... corny huh!? but true...Anyway, my ex-boyfriend planned to celebrate the pre-new year party with his friends and I was not invited thou…huhuhuuhh…

Well, that night, I tried to contact him and asked him if he’s planning to go out and he replied that he will go out together with his friends and when I asked him if I can go out with them he answered me positively.......When I met them at the gate of the bar, the stay there for about 5 mins and we came inside the bar and meet other friends.... we choose a better place for us to hang out (and witness different cocks and jocks... hahahahah) and ordered 6 bottles of beers, and guess what ?!?!?!? I never touch those first 6 bottles of beers because I truly don’t want to drink beer at all and all I did was to stand at the corner...ALONE... !!! After few minutes I decided to ordern an iced tea and dance again every now and then...

While we’re dancing, drinking, flirting and chatting at the same time, a guy who sits next to our table looked at me with a big smile on his face. Well, I think that I have the reason to look at him, you know why ? Because he is totally hot!!! Cute!!!! And oh my god, he’s such a gorgeous-looking guy. He was introduced to me by my Ex bf and without knowing he's a bottom guy!

So, this guy danced with me together with her shemale friend. After that, he asked my name and asked me to take off my clothes... That evening, I’m just wearing my Tank top and my jogging pants and as u can imagine I am so sporty! Imagine a guy who went to the gym with a small make-up kit… Funny isn’t it … hehehe… Kidding aside, it is not a make-up kit… hahhahaah .. but a small pouch contains of my perfume, wallet and cell phone…

Anyway, I saw the face of my ex-bf and it seems that he’s no longer concern about me. So, this guy removed my tank top and start dancing in front of me...As in… He’s flirting with me that evening… and god!!!! I had a total hard-on (i wish he's not able to read this) hehehehe ...

While dancing, I saw the transformation of the disco pub into a jungle and how I saw the guys transforming into beasts, wild-animals, and hot bulls.... thou its not a total bullshit but as you can see, it is a total image of the wild life in Africa. Anyway, as the night getting late… oopppss I forgot that we went there late... again... As the night turn into morning... I saw different guys kissing and touching each others likes strangers in the dark.... What are they doing there? Do they know who are they kissing??? And It reminds me on how am I gonna value the KISSING...????

I’m sure that all of you will agree to me that one of the most special part in a pornshow, romantic films, plays and TV series are the kissing scenes because it is a symbol of getting into another level... another level of maturity or another level of being attached to each other, right?! Specifically to the person you like the most.... or should I say... love the most ?? which do one do you think is appropriate??? Anyway, I saw these two strange guys (also they are strange to each other.. hehehe ) .... and as I observed them, at first, they just dance and smile to each other and after that they introduce themselves to each other and taking-off their clothes after the heavy moments of dancing.... funny isn’t it ? But that’s how it really goes.... Unless you don’t want it...

Anyway...

It is really good to know that they enjoy the night and never spoiled it. Another thing that captured my attention was the way they kissed and why they are kissing?! It comes to the point, that I asked myself why do they need to do that ?~!?!?! hmmm....I’m sure that all of us are eager to have that kiss and since that kissing is also known as form of art because it is an expression of emotion using the sense as your medium towards your subject/s. It is also one way of showing your affection and compassion to another person “you love” right?! This should be another thing to talk about…. Another good thing to clarify and another good thing to clear…But do we really need to do that in front of the gay club?! Inside the gay club??? In the middle of the dance floor??? Is that one way of showing and telling to the world that "someone like me because he kissed me..." or "... I’m hot and I have a very hot body then get and kiss me..."

Well...aside from just a kiss… there's another that bothers me…The French kissing... OMG!!!! Well guys, if we will going to a gay club, please!... lets not try this because it is not recommendable especially for the youth like us …I know that it is not my concern but let me tell u something, I've been in that situation and kissed different hot guys and gay guys, but then... what I’m looking for is not with them... There’s no spark at all and it’s just like, wasting my time of doing such thing without any satisfaction....

I am not trying to encourage you to stop it but then, you may avoid it... Try to meet and know the person first before you kiss or have sex with him and then if you both deserve each others, why not try to get his number and invite him to another comfortable place that will suits for both of you.... Because I believe that the power of love and the foundation of relationship SHOULD undergo process...

Always remember that we should take kissing as another sacred thing, because it is good when u kiss the person you really love with deeper feelings and a deeper emotions, compassion and true feeling of love… and not just a cheap kissing from a strange guy... Try to imagine how expensive your kiss worth and then make a deal to a person you starting to like and to love, then you will realize the amount of it when you both kiss passionately with love and compassion and that’s it... that the value of it... that’s the great thing about knowing how valuable your kisses are...

Kissing will become unforgettable kisses when you give it with love and share it with feelings... It will be amazing if you will do it with enjoyment and romance and lastly, it will be great if you just dance and start an amazing courting that will lead you to a better understanding of a true gay guy relationship...

Happy New Year~~~

tH3 R3lAt!0nShip Of A TrAñsG3nDeR-GEi - The observation

Gay-relationship is very interesting and colorful relationship in this world. It has different genre like what we see in the movies and like we read at the pocketbooks.... It is really great because it has drama and comedy, the villain and the antagonist, the side-kick and the protagonist... The theme, the plot, the climax but not concluded ending... and these things help to make such relationship a world-class masterpiece.

Sometimes, relationship is full of happiness and most often full of mystery. Because you dont know what is the key to solve the mystery and how it is happening... It is quite amazing if such relationship survive because you know that both of them are working out to survive. Its nice, right?! .. It is right when you work and you see the product of ur hardship... its quite fulfilling!!!

Last night, when i visit my Transgender friend in her performance at the bay, I never realized that his boyfriend was there to once again support him and its really cool to remember how they met... well of course i will not going to mention how they met... its a complicated thing hehehe ... Anyway, I miss this friend of mine and i consider her as my bestfriend... She's so nice and she's so fantastic... I went there late in the evening and because of that, i missed most of the performance and laughthers... She's a stand-up comedianne, you know... Anyway, this is not her story but a story of her co-performer... hehehe

While sitting on the table with Nanay Chuchai (Code) and my bestfriend's boyfriend, we talk different things and one of those is the Pinoy Dream Academy which is very interesting to discuss. Of course, I need to avoid the entire topic of my bestfriend & boyfriend because for sure they will not gonna spit it out... hehehe... Anyway, I enjoy laughing with Nanay Chuchai and its really good to remember the past when i saw her drunk...

well.... let me begin...

In the middle of our conversation a guy interrupt us because Nanay Chuchai made a homily to this guy and after that short homily, Nanay Chuchai introduce him to me but as you expected, I forgot his name... Anyway, here where the story goes, This guy has a normal relationship--relationship with straight female, and if im not mistaken He is also committed to this normal relationship. Without knowing he is also attached with Shine (code) who is also a transgender...

Well as i heard the homily and the story of this guy even in a short period of time... I realize that eventhough it is painful for them(trans) to be hurt by someone straight, still they are there to be part of that growing relationship... or false relationship?! Who knows, only the people involved in that relationship can answer and solve it.

Why did i say that?! Well, This guy wait for how many hours to Shine because he did something to her that makes her sad and hurt...This guy told to Nanay Chuchai that he loves Shine but as the homily is concern, he knows that he did something that make Shine cry and anger... Thou the guy statement sounds genuine because he even told nanay chuchai that he dont love his present wife and thats one reason why he's trying to make-up with her. Because of this, he waited for long time and stay there and go home together... Of course, it sounds very sweet but then, try to realize it, a man will never stay and wait if he dont have some problem with Shine, right?!

Of course, it is hard to be a gay querida and its funny when u say that word, but sometimes it is a fact and it is real that these people are looking for someone to love without knowing that the person they choose to love have another commitment... Thou i dont want to hurt this people but the reality is that, it is very minimal to a transgender-relationship to find the real relationship, the real happiness... of course being gay is another thing... it is another thing because it cost effort, trials and experiences to find the best relationship.

Im very much happy for them because they enjoy even it is complicated but it is really hurtful when u see them crying and you have nothing to advice becoz its not your thing.. you know!?. That is their way to define love and from that love, they know that they are satisfied and well. They know that even the whole world is against them, still they found the best in it...Another thing, I find it very amazing because I saw the happiness to that guy when he call Shine "bhe" and it means that they are really into each other... sweet huh?! Even me, I would like someone to call me hunny or Baby and its really sweet to hear... heheheh>>>

anyway...

While both performers are doing their job to make money and make the crowd laughs.. Still there are two guys waiting for them... Two guys that accepted that they are in the world of true love, true acceptance and real transgender relationship... is it? who knows?!

Im very much happy with these people because one thing for sure, They are happy, well-accepted and inloved and from that, i know that no matter what happen, still it is the best for them to continue it and be part of that relationship... Of course there's no such perfect relationship, because it needs effort, time and commitment to build and develop it. No one in this world can answer your own problem if you dont seek on it, and if u dont find the solution of it...

conti....

A 15-minutes blog of a gayguy date...

Date is a very interesting hobby of a lonely person ... It is the answer of the of the question, Am i being alone forever?! Is he my mr. right?! or Is this the way to my long-time commitment?! What if this date is such a failure and not even gonna pass to your standard?! What will gonna happen?! What if your date rejected you instead you rejected him?! Hmmmm... Very realistic questions, right?!

Well it is really good to meet stranger that you will meet for the 1st time and after that it will bring you both to a very good friendshipr or much deeper--gayguy relationship.That is a very interesting conclusion of a great and soulmate-date, right?! Because you know that you both understand what everything is all about. It is also good to spend time with him and think that u're both child who enjoy the company of no-doubt, enjoyment and continous happiness because this is makes u both feel great!!!!

All i can say is that... when u meet someone stranger and this is a good example of EB or SEB it should be better if you meet and talk and get to know more because thats the best start of a very healthy relationship... Reality bites! it is great that you never say you like him on the first date or even on the first time you will meet or have sex with, because thats not real.. its just like you are in the middle of fantasy... it is not real... HEllo!!!! You both should enjoy the moment of talking and maybe you can do that both on the 2nd meeting, on the 2nd time when both of you are comfortable to each other...

It is also safe for both of you that way because I'm sure u r both innocent to each other's background... What im trying to say is that ... At least you dont know his background and vise versa and as the time goes by... It will develop and will form a best ever relaitonship... Many people said that friendship is the gateway of a true relationship but then it is up to you how u will go to the next level... it is ur way how it will evolve and develop and it is your way if both of you will be happy not for shorter but a longer relationship. Times up!