U....

"You become my inspiration... You give me reason to live life.... You give me chance to see my life in a brighter side... Help me to forget you!!!!"

--- jhayvee

WHY????

Last night I sleep around 8pm and woke up around 10pm because my mom texted me... And after that text, im trying to sleep again but its really hard for me to sleep because Im thinking for many things... I dont know where to start but it really makes me feel so lonely and my life is like a roller coaster because of the problems and the thoughts im thinking this past few days....

I dont know... everything is like a problem with me at the moment... its really hard for me to establish myself because of many circumstances... I wish I can solve this... i just wish!!!

WHY????

Last night I sleep around 8pm and woke up around 10pm because my mom texted me... And after that text, im trying to sleep again but its really hard for me to sleep because Im thinking for many things... I dont know where to start but it really makes me feel so lonely and my life is like a roller coaster because of the problems and the thoughts im thinking this past few days....

I dont know... everything is like a problem with me at the moment... its really hard for me to establish myself because of many circumstances... I wish I can solve this... i just wish!!!

FACES.... & CHARACTER.....

AM I done?!

Am I done?!!?!? Am i done with my life of being single?! Am i ready to enter to a new relationship?! How am I able to work it out?! Is he the one im waiting for?! How sure i am? How sure he is?!

Too many questions bothers on my mind this past few days ... It made me realize how lucky I am to experience this problems, struggles and enjoyment...It means that Im a certified HUMAN BEING...

I know that life is very hard and very unpredictable... U dont know who will come your way.. or who will u gonna meet at the end of the line... Sometimes, it is better to dream than to see the reality of life... Sometimes it is better to keep your eyes close than to see what will going to happen next... But no doubt... that is the beauty of life and I thank God for that!!!

We are all lucky to have this life and I know God has his own way on how to please us... how to give what we need in life... what type of problem that He's going to give... We are lucky becoz we are alive... we live... we enjoy... we struggle... we cry...and we are here to share the bounty of God.. The blessings and the life that we have...

But how about my life that Im longing for?! how about the heart that im looking for? how about the nights that i'm there alone looking for someone to cuddle, someone to touch?! It made me feel so sad?! It made me feel thats my life yesterday, today and tomorrow... Am i just lonely?! How about my happinesss???

Am I Happy?!

For me.. Happiness is having someone next you.. someone that u will have for the rest of your life... someone that will give u heartache, headache and stomachache but still he's there living with you...loving you... making u sad, making u smile and making u proud... Happiness is how you will epxerience the sadness with the person u love the most... Happiness is how you will cherish the moment u r in the middle of magic... Happiness is the moment you both enjoy what u both looking for...

Happiness is YOU...

My happiness is always be you...

I dont know when you will come to me and love me... I dont know when u will approach me... I dont know... but then... I welcome you... If you found me as your happiness... I hope i make u happy... I wish i can make u happy... and i hope it will be forever...