MY NEW BESTFRIEND.... NIKOND40X... AND MY PRACTICE SHOTS

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HI THERE PEOPLE OF THE WORLD.. HERE I AM AGAIN TO SHARE YOU ANOTHER ACTIVITY OF

MINE... PHOTOGRAPHY... I HOPE YOU LIKE MY PRACTICE SHOTS...

Another day in PAradise...

Well... I just watched the David Archuleta's performance on youtube and sang Another day in Paradise, so this is the reason why I made this blog... not because of David Archuleta but of course to what I experience last Thursday night... It was really good to think that after your heavy week, you will have some break and spend thatt moment with special someone.

Well.. last Thursday night was really fun... After work, I went home and prepare myself for another fun night.... We always enjoy meeting and we always enjoy seeing each other... I know the fact that we dont say that we both miss each other, but.... There is a time that all we have to do is enjoy walking, talking, chatting, eating and watching TV... hehehehe but it was really fun....

He picked me up around 8pm and then we went to Khaladiya mall which is one of the newest mall here in AD.... After that, we decided to take some snacks for later and then we flash to Ocean's restaurant.. where we spent our valentine's date.... We dine-in and ordered some foods and we talked more and joke more... sometimes being mean but most of the time.. fun....

Well... After the shopping thing... we take some break and prepared the snacks but of course we need to take some time to clean ourselves... Without knowing... he prepared the bathtub for a nice bath relaxation....It was successful, after putting some liquid soap and really hot water... it was really fun because he was there next to me and relaxing.... its cool, you know but of course the water was really hot... hehehe and im sure... he is hot too... :D

After that, we watched TV shows and then grab some cola and whisky while we're eating our midnight snacks... Its really nicee and cool that you talk and have some wonderful time with the person you like... it is another wonderful moment, I cherish it of course...

I MAY BE A DRAMA QUEEN, BUT I THINK I'M ALSO GENUINE

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I MAY BE A DRAMA QUEEN, BUT I THINK I'M ALSO GENUINE: JV

When I was in College I use to have this feeling and ability to create different genre of life, I creat different scenario and start thinking by asking myself "WHAT IF?" In this case, it is really easy to create a certain story or create a certain beginning and ending. Most of the time, I think of cool things in life and sometimes, worst. I usually put heavy drama in this things and makes my life and my attitude affected.
For example, When I was in my senior year in college I had this guy who is really nice, cool, handsome and sweet. In short, he is almost perfect 10 when it comes to physical and moral characteristics. He is always a good guy to me, but one time this crazy mind ask again "WHAT IF" what if he found someone and leave me... Do you know what happen? Well, I felt that if he found someone and be happy with another person I dont know if I have the courage to fight for his love. Because I know sometimes Im stupid just letting my guy go... Then on, i was a jealous type of guy and sometimes never trust him. But it really happens, He met a new college guy and been together for longer time and I just let him go. I never fight or ask him to come back because I dont know what else I can prove that Im inlove with him (that time).
Many people talked to me that'What if' makes your simple life miserable, complicated and full of pressure, becuase you know to yourself that it will be nonstop, it will be continous and may affect many lives or even your future. They said that because of this character, I became a Drama Queen, always a drama and make things complicated. You know what, it is hard to tell to a person how you care, and sometimes its hard to say it in front of the person how happy you are with him, so you are creating possibilities of what you will going to expect if he or she is like that. Or even, if he or she have that expected answers, for sure it will be happy. but most often, it is not like that, it always end the 'what if' thing into much complicated situation, the target -- your heart and mind.
So far, This past few months are very wonderful months for me, i met this lovely guy, totally nice, very loving I think and cool. I never seen him sad even there are things that make him sad, All i see is a very positive attitude towards life and how things go round and make life simple and not so complicated. But I know it is my fault that sometimes I overreact, been sad or quiet, and make things complicated... Thats why we both know in the first place that we dont have similarities even our nationalities, likes and dislike. But, we are in the process of getting to know each other and I wish I can be just simple guy and dont think so complicated. I just wish I can tell more things that my mind want to say, or even my heart want to whisper. I wish I dont have the cursed of "What if" that makes my mind create stories that makes my own heart hurts. I just wish, he can accept me for being like this because I know even in so drama I still beleive im genuine.
Now, Im afraid, because of these things, there might be a possibilities that he will stop calling me, or even stop talking to me, or even not to talk to me at all....But he dont know what inside of me when he say things that makes me feel sad... Im afraid to lose him, you know!?! Because once again , I know it will be heartbroken ending again, it will be hurting inside again... I will make an example for you to understand it...
What will be your feeling if one day he say goodbye?? What will be your initial reaction if he cant stay because i have this curse of being so drama? It hurts me when he asked me these things, I will never say anything but Im sure you see the sadness in my eyes when you tell me this... I know you never mean to hurt me, or you dont want me to get hurt because of these, because i know that fact from the early beginning.... I just feel so sad bout this, these things are the things that makes me sad... makes me quiet or makes me crazy.... IF craziness is acting stupid things and behaving not so well atittude, then I accept... Because, someone is coming but you dont like to pass because you are haunted by your past....
If your past makes u cautious in your future, then it is really hard to determine the right future.... You are right about several things, you proven alot and be the best one, I never ask for anything, I just want to know, where I will be in your heart?!!!! But thank you for letting me in, I just still want to make you happy... I will be there for you no matter what... I just wish, you give me reason to fight for this, to fight for you...

before the heart month ends....

I really dont know what will gonna happen this year but I consider that this month is amazing month that i will remember even if the year ends.

There are reason why people are looking for a committed relationship.. I am! I always dream and wanted to have a good relationship.. a long time relationship but i know that it will be hard... it will be in different process and will test of time... I never been in a long time relationship but i think 3months is long one... hehehe but kidding aside, i never been to a long one... Never tried... no one like... :(

I know to myself that im easy to have feelings to one person... I just want this person to feel that I will try to be here no matter what... Like what we always say... life is to short to be faithful... heheheheh joke!! LIFE IS SHORT TO WASTE TIME...I always beleive that I can give my heart and my love to a person who will love me the same way I do... I dont know if it is right but I know that in my situation, i dont want to waste time.. instead, to know him well and be with him as long as we both have the same feelings.... It might be crazy to say but I think when you feel that love... you will adjust everything, you will sacrifice everything and you will be with this guy no matter what... It is painful to know if the person leave you because he cheated or seeing someone because he dont have the passion to love you anymore...

Im 26yo but I know the feeling that sometimes, I need someone to cry on.. I need someone to enjoy my nights and days... I like days when u both feel the love and express it in many ways... .I never have this love but like what i always say... This year is the year where i need to be patient, be cool and enjoy everything i have... thats me, that is what i want to be...

you know, I feel so happy sometimes and bad that im still single... i really dont know the problem but sometimes, it is good if u have this feeling or someone to be with and enjoy everyday being togehter... it is really good feeling when you feel different when he is with you and make u smile and make u happy... things change but it is something, you know!?

Do you also want to know my dream wedding??? Funny to say it here, right ??? but my wedding is just simple... me and my partner announcing our committment and vows in front of my friends at the beach... near the seashore, where the sun and water are my witnesses on this forever love... I also like to invite close friends to witness this and to share this moment of me being happy to a person that i want to have for the rest of my life...

Im just a simple guy, I might have some issues but i guarantee you that I will stick to a person I care for no matter what.... It is amazing when you feel something to a person and then all of the suddent you are trying to adjust to know him or to be with him... or happy being dating a person exclusively... isnt it nice??? hhhehehee... I still beleive in a monogamous relationship... I dont know this feelings but I think i will just cherish this...

I feel sad now.. thinking that i am missin something.... :(

A day call Valentines Day

Its been a long time since I write blogs in here but i think this time, I have a good reason to do so...

It is really good to know that sometimes someone inspire you to write a blog/s. It is also good thing that someone makes u happy inspite of many troubles and difficulties... It is also good to know that some cares and appreciate you in the middle of nowhere.

Last night was a very lovely night for me, it all started when he picked me up after I finished working out... It was great when someone is there after your heavy day... On our way to our 1st destination, i greeted him Happy Valentines day and I cant kiss our touch him because we're in public. UAE is not a gay community friendly so, I know how to deal with this thing... While driving, he is getting something inside his plastic bag and I just wonder what was it ...and all of the sudden, he put out something... and it was a box of chocolates...

It was a big surprise for me and i think i blushed when he gave that box of chocolates... you know.. its a simple thing, but i truly appreciate it... My heart's beat faster as I was there sitting next to him... it was a good start of knowing that i feel happiness after a long time....

I asked him where to go, and he brought me in a Small chinese restaurant and it looks very nice and fancy.. its like a scene in an old movie because for me, its like a fine dining... We sit back and relaxed and after few minutes he ordered food for both of us... we keep chatting and have a very nice diner and its really good food, aside from the fact that our waitress was really nice and I'm proud to say that She's a Filipina.

After we ate pancit canton and shanghai roles, we went to his place and watched DVD, it is really good because its night where you spend more time talking and knowing each other, understanding things and learnings between the two of us. We has a wonderful night by saying goodnight and kissed. It was so fantastic, I feel so great knowing that there is someone hugging you and cuddling you in the middle of the night... It is not really perfect but a wonderful night to share and to spend to someone who I consider nice, lovely and cute... hhehehhee

I am happy and i feel good bout this evening... It is the best Valentines day of my life...

Happy Valentines Day... Cheers!